Hola! Some of my friends have been wondering why I haven’t posted in a while. It’s a shame to admit this but I haven’t written a post these past few weeks because I’ve been breaking out since the start of clerkship. It’s like I have a pimple after another. The worst part is that each pimple tends to become pustular (read: kadiri, having pus or “nana”). I thought “nakakahiya naman” to write about skin care tips when I couldn’t even take good care of my own skin, or when my regimen doesn’t work for me anymore. I have the gene for instant pimple activation whenever I do not get enough sleep or during/near that time of the month. However, this is the first time for me to get this much acne and it’s actually been giving me some sort of stress.
So the thought about self esteem came to me, and I realized how physical appearance (like the presence or absence of that big pustular pimple) can affect a big chunk of it. I know it is superficial but who wouldn’t want a flawless skin, right? The other day, I was walking in the hospital with a big pimple on my face. I just can’t seem to hide it effectively with a concealer! I knew the other clerks/interns wouldn’t really notice it but I felt insecure and wished they wouldn’t look at me. Haha! I was holding my face with a tissue, trying to conceal the thing. How pathetic diba! As if naman nakatingin talaga sila, feelingera! Haha!
Anyway, I am lucky that I am currently doing my elective rotation in Dermatology. Hooray for free consultation with the residents! Now, I’m on my first day of a new regimen. I really hope this one works for me. I am currently using Clindamycin solution as a toner (morning and night) and Azelaic acid cream (at night). I have these two along with the usual moisturizer and sunblock that I’ve been using.
Please know that I still believe that everyone is so much more than how many pimples they have on their face, be they big or small, pustular or not. Aaaand, if you have acne and it has been obviously having an impact on your self esteem already, do something (appropriate) about it!